For all i have done to you in the past . The things i did to you ,for toying with your emotions,hurtting you.ripping you apart like i did and all the fights.I 'm sorry for makeing you feel bad and makeing you feel ike it was you that made me upset when alalong it was some one els. I dont know how i could do that to you and yes i know you hate me for it . but i feel the right thing to do is to say sorry and ask for your frogiveness.i was bliend to the way i was treatting the one and only best fiend i had . i was bliend to the way that i made you feel.i was and still am huge DA .only now i can see that i had no heart to how i was makeing you feel,how i was hurtting you. i mverry sorry for jokeing about suicidewith i wake up hateing my self for that.Knowing how much it hurt you and that i cant change time to make that all go away. i just wish i knew what i know now what i didnt then. all i want is to make tings write with the way i treatted you .you can hate me or like me thats for you to chouse not me.even as i write this i hate my self. when you left i lost my best frend my muse . i still have that art peace that you made saying it hurts here in my heart . i know you hate me for all i have done to you in the past but now i just want to make it write.make up to you all i have done. i guess what i am trying to say is can you see in you heart 2 for give me ?
love always jionrou/your daddy